So here’s a little something I learned about myself: I’m a terrible loser. Okay, true, I’m not a great winner either. But losing…let me tell you…it sucks. And I should know because I’ve had a boat load of practice. I mean, I am an Olympic caliber loser. I lose all the time. Writing, for instance…I have over 200 rejections. Two hundred! I don’t even think I sent manuscripts out that many times. Editors just rejected my stuff out of the blue because, you know, everybody was doing it.
That was hard. But that would probably be hard on any relatively normal person. Last night, though, I think I hit a new low. You see, I went to an award ceremony after which I was feeling kind of low. It wasn’t until I reached home that I realized it was because I hadn’t won anything. But here’s the funny thing–I HADN’T EVEN ENTERED. That’s right, I felt like crap that I didn’t win even though I wasn’t eligible. Hmmmm. This almost suggests that…oh I don’t know…I’m one sick puppy??
So I made a new year’s resolution: In 2013 I’m going to try not to be so competitive. But here’s the sickest part yet: I also plan to compete more. Now, if you asked my husband he would assure you there is no way I could fit any more competitions into my schedule since most of my events (horse shows) are on the weekends and there are, after all, a limited number of weekends in a calendar year. But that’s where he’d be wrong because voila! writing contests, for instance, can be lost any day of the week. Ditto for photography contests. Obstacle course races tend to be on weekends so they’ll have to compete with the horse show schedule, but who doesn’t feel a desperate need to crawl through the mud under barbed wire???!!
So there you have it, my resolution: More competing, less competitiveness. What about you guys? Any new resolutions you totally plan to break before February?